Ow, ow, owowow...

Frickin' elbow.
Prolly old age-related, too.

I can't extend my arm, can't bend my arm, can't do other things so easily either, so if I go to the "library", seemingly never to return, somebody tell Eric to come "help" me, okay?

And, I've gotta clean this HOUSE.
*big-assed sigh*

Oughta be fun.

Also, I've just made "inquiries" into starting over with a "new" blog. If I do, who wants the new info? I've got, maybe, 5 or 6 people I KNOW would want it and that I want to have it, but who else? And, how would I know?

Tell me now.

What the deal is about that, is this...

Frankly, I've said things in the past, in my rages, that I now do not want to be found by certain people. Wally, the asshole, was bad enough. I've done what little I can do here to prevent those things from being read, but there are still "caches", which I want to find out how to "get rid of", too, if possible. At the very least, I want a "fresh" place that can't be crawled.
If I have to go so far as to backup Xfire to disk and delete the whole thing, so be it.

I want the same design next time, except for the title. I don't feel so "caught" anymore and I want the new one to reflect that. Hah. I was almost dopey enough to mention it. But... not quite.

When I first considered doing this, it was mostly to hide, which was bullshit. Now, it's mostly because Xfire doesn't "fit" me like it did before, thank (Paul and) God.

I am also a little uncomfortable, now, going off about some things. Yesterday, for instance, work was the kinda clusterfuck that had me in tears and where ya get home from work, remove (this goddamned fuckin', stupid, ugly-assed, aaaarrrgggghhhhh) uniform, tie it into as many knots as possible and throw it under a major appliance til ya hafta wash it to go to work the next day.

But, did I get to say one word? Nope.

That's sad.

I know how to "fix" this problem, if it is a problem, in the future. I'll just write that kinda stuff to "draft" and keep it there. However, even though I know I can do this now, I still "can't", because all the past vitriolic shit bugs me too much to be comfortable adding to it, as it were.

Xfire doesn't feel like "home" anymore.

I've had some kind of fundamental change happen in me that I'm not even fully aware of yet and now I need to start over.

Anyway, like I said, I've only just made an inquiry into how I might go about doing this, so don't get all freaked out. And, if anybody knows a way around or to be rid of those cached posts, by all means, speak up.

Hell, if I can get past all the mean, nasty shit I've said (most of which is already back in "draft"), I'll just change the name and go on from right here.

Oh, if it could only be so easy, me and my big, fat, pissed off mouth.

I know. I may be jumping the gun, or reacting to something that hasn't actually happened, but isn't that supposed to be smart to do sometimes? Wouldn't trying to do this AFTER some huge problem be considered "closing the barn door after the horse was rustled", (and I use that word on purpose, Paul)?

I'd like to think that, finally, after 41 freakin' years, I can learn from shit other people get put through. I'd hate to lose my job over typing, ya know? Not that it's a million dollar a year job, but I do like the place enough to keep going back, day after (friggin') day, so why lose it just because some people who work there are certifiable and I feel a compulsion to mention it?

Here, too, by the way.
*rolls eyes*

("Here" as in this farm, not the blog...)

Anyhow, me and my fricked up elbow are gonna go start trying to make a dent in my 14 item list o'shit I hafta do. (Smiles at Mad Wm. upon mention of the "list"...)

I'll be around.
Don't hafta go back to the nuthut masquerading as a restaurant for two days.
Yeeeeeeaaaaaayyyyyyy!!!!!!

Let me know if ya have any ideas about those "caches" or want the "new" info when there is any.

Peace

Posted by: Stevie at 12:49 PM

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