Whoa...

Now, this is cool.

Check this out.
Then, guess what I'm watching right this very second on TV? I started with Tape 1 early this morning, got thru most of Tape 2, stopped, went to bed, got up, finished Tape 2 and am currently watching number 3. I was literally looking at Darrel Buschkoetter when I saw this search.

Lord, I like Darrel so much. I first saw this documentary (The Farmer's Wife) on PBS years ago. Then, while I was working at Wellacrest, I saw it again and fell in love with the whole thing. I identified so strongly with Darrel then and I still do. It became "forever" when I saw him wearing a Gerber on his hip, just like I did. I see him carrying a huge tire across the driveway to his pickup and remember it when I'm dragging a five gallon bucket of fuel across Wally's farm for the space heater in the parlor, among other things. I HAD TO own this one.

So, I do.
And, like most of the stuff I like, I watch it over and over. Only thing is, I wish I knew how Darrel's doing NOW.

Frontline stopped doing updates on the family over a year ago and David (the guy who shot the thing) doesn't have info, either. I've tried to find an email addy for Darrel and looked just everywhere I can think up to see if I can find out how he is, but.... pfffftttt... nada.

Man, I'd love to "talk" to him. Watching him now, makes me want to go back into dairying like I was at Wellacrest... like I can't do here. That's okay, tho, cause there is one other farm right down the road and I plan to bug the shit outta those people til they hire me. In the meantime, I still have Darrel left from my Wally days to remind me of what I was doing and why and how I could even stand it, not to mention make me miss it so much.

And, no... that's not what Eric is about to me, even tho that is where we "found" each other. Eric is all about why it was/is so easy to walk away from that which I loved so much. And, now, he's also about why it is I need to go do it again, for the money. Darrel is the "I can do that, too" guy, the one I kept telling myself, "He's doing it, he's struggling with something right now, on his farm, out in Nebraska, just like I am here.." guy. Darrel is the one I want to be able to keep up with, work-wise.

Eric is the one I want, need, to come home to.

I wish I could give Darrel all the pats on the back and hugs his Dad didn't and never could have. I do not like his Dad one bit. What a cold hearted, hard hearted little man he is or was and God forgive me if I'm speaking ill of the dead, but damn... that man couldn't give Darrel one bit of encouragement to save his own ass. Darrel deserved better.

If anybody knows anybody who knows anybody who knows Darrel, could ya please tell him I said "Hi" and that I really do hope he's doing great and is just fine and happy? I do think about him a lot and I really liked him. I wish I really did know him even half as well as this documentary makes me feel like I do.

Peace, Darrel.
I hope you have it, now.

Posted by: Stevie at 04:20 PM

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