Hi you guys...

I know I've been kinda quiet lately and that even when I have posted it's been kinda.... dry, but....
I do have a buncha reasons why... lol.

Not the least of which is that there have been a half a ton of people here and I wasn't too thrilled about the one, which kinda colored the whole deal a little and left me feeling kinda resentful, a little pissed, and sorta too bugged to write, yet it also got me talking to Bill (of all people) a coupla times this week. (Not to EEEVEN mention the fact that every damned time I did start to try to think shit out or tried to start to write, SOMEBODY (didn't matter who) just haaaaad to come in here and start blathering at me about nonsense shit and just totally derail my train of thought. Man, I hate that shit....)

Eric's back was giving him holy old hell for a few days (he's gettin' better, thank God), I was getting all twisted up over stupid shit (as usual) then, about a week ago, two things happened at about the same time and... I just... I don't even know what to call it, what I was doing... thinking yeah, but also learning and re-evaluating and growing up a little more, I guess you could say.

The one thing that happened is over. Paul is home, yay... and, basically, my computer was acting stupid enough before he left, let alone me making it worse when he wasn't around and the other thing? Well, that's gonna take some time, some balls, some luck, some God, but I think (feel, have to believe) it'll end up okay. But, it sure has given me quite a bit to think about and realize.
And, I'm profoundly grateful for the opportunity to figure these things out, to yank my head a LOT further outta my ass, as it were.

Now.... where I am now is: In about 3 hours, the only people who will be here will be me and Eric. (Yay.)
The house is a total wreck, because I ain't stupid and I wasn't about to try to keep up when the wrecking crew was still here. I need to get that back together.
I feel fine (except for getting teary eyed a little about Waylon a bit ago), everything is cool... better than before, even, because I talked to a really good friend of mine, a guy I trust to the nth degree and always will, about the "legal shit" we're all facing (or trying to hide from, actually) in this house and he, being a cop, knows better how things work and what's to be scared of and what's not and he just made me feel ever so much better. (Thank you, Chuckles... I do love you, ya know... and you better be wearin' that vest, Bud... lol)

So, given a little time to get my shit back in order, I will be back, typing my little fingers to da bone, bein' retarded and all that.

I have missed it, really.
It's kinda weird to really see just how much a part of me this blogging is nowdays, how truly helpful it all is and on so many levels and in so many ways, which you guys are such a huge part of.

Oh yeah.
I will be back.
Real soon.

Peace...
(and a hug to whomever wants one... besides me.)
*giggle*

Posted by: Stevie at 05:41 PM

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Posted by: Mad William Flint at September 02, 2004 09:04 PM (jRssG)

Posted by: Stevie at September 02, 2004 11:56 PM (gWKOA)

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