Awwww, y'all are so sweet...
I was having an "I must suck reeeeeally bad" day the other day. There was more than just one thing making me feel that way. With the exception of the "horse thang", everything has been or is being resolved.
The only thing that was buggin' me about this, Xfire, was the gaping maw of silence. Warn't nobody sayin' nuttin' about nuttin'. Let's put it this way... I just hadda go alllll the way back to the 13th to come up with as many comments as there are under the post "Am I done already?", and 4 of those are ME... lol. That is sad.... (In keeping with "full disclosure", I feel compelled to add that Mad Mikey is right up there with me, as 4 of the remaining comments were his. And, since I just worked it out and I'm sure there must be at least ONE other person wondering, the rest of the breakdown goes thusly: Terry left two comments and the following all left one; Donnie, my Eric, Paul, Pril, Amy, Pam, Kenna, Mad William, Jane, Cait and my "other" Eric. Remember now, this is since the 13th... and it includes the post AFTER "Am I done already?", which didn't get any, either.... *rolling eyes* *and giggling*) So, I was feeling a little... pathetic. I probably shouldn't have been, but.... Siiigh. I suppose it'd help to explain two dominant features of my personality that pertains to this stuff. First of all, it drives me beyond bugfuck when yer trying to have a conversation with a person who takes AGES to respond. In the course of daily life, when dealing with random nimrods in person, it comes across as calculated or maybe fabricated when someone has to stop and think (so hard) about what to say. It doesn't bother me that bad when it's not someone I have to deal with all the time, but when it is, it makes me nearly homicidal. Just ask George. That dude has gone literally HOURS before answering a simple question. Makes me nuts(er). My brain fires so fuckin' fast that I say shit I probably shouldn't, but hell, at least ya KNOW it's the truth. It comes out too quickly to be anything else.... The other aspect is weird. It's a defense I came up with in high school against stupid boys who'd say they'd call, then didn't. Especially boyFRIENDS. Gawd, that used to piss me right off. Soooo, after about the second time I was left waiting by the phone for some asswit to call, I said "To hell wit' dis shit..." and started just disabling the phone after they didn't call when they were supposed to. Then, I still wasn't hearing the damned thing ring, but at least it was MY doing, not theirs. Smart, hey? *rolling eyes, again* It's stuck with me, though. It's also mutated into other aspects of my life... obviously. After I wrote that post, I started wondering if I really am retarded, because who, with any brain function, bitches about a dwindling audience (and hardly any comments) TO a dwindling audience? I kept asking myself "Who's even gonna see it, ya frickin' knothead?" Well, Rob did. (Have I mentioned lately that I love that guy? I do. He is awesome...) That was all it took, too. Just Rob seeing it. Now, tons of people have seen it and I have an unprecidented number of comments on one post that not one of came from me... (did that make sense?). Twenty comments, and they're all from other people. I'm still amazed. Probably will be for some time to come... So, mostly what I've been wanting to say is "Thank you" with a hug to each person who commented. I've emailed everyone back that I could, but there were three or so people so far, who didn't use real email addys and I wanna make sure they know I appreciate it, too. "OldGeek", Jim and Mark... kisses on youse, too, okay? In the meantime, I've 'rolled two new blogs I've found from all this and have about 42 new bookmarks, too. One place I've stumbled upon, however, just creeps me right out. If you're a young, beautiful blonde woman from Vancouver, BC, ya might wanna make it a point to stay as far away from this dude as ya possibly can. Does he not look just like Eric Robert's version of Paul Schnider in "Star 80"? *shudder*What is with this dude's lips? There's one shot of him where his lips make Mick Jagger's look positively demure by comparison. Somebody needs to tell him the "pimp" look is OUT and to lose that cheesy-assed excuse for a moustach. He's got absolutely beautiful eyes, but... it doesn't help at all. Anyhoot... you guys are all so completely cool... Thank you again.
And, Rob?
You've got some great karma headed your way, if I have any influence on such things.
{{{HUG!}}} (I just had give you one back.) Peace
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I, being the asswit (love that word) that I am, completely missed that post the other day. I'm sorry.
I have noticed a drop in visitors and commenters around the 'Sphere and all I can say is: IT'S SUMMER! I used to notice the same phenomenon in Yahoo groups...from June 'til September, it was like everyone dropped off the face of the Earth.
Rest assured, you DON'T suck! Your audience has just become lazy or otherwise occupied. Then there's me..fighting off a really major depression...but that's a whole other story, and it has no place here.
You just keep doing what you're doing. Blogging should always be for YOU, not the rest of the fucking planet.
*hugs and much love*
I have noticed a drop in visitors and commenters around the 'Sphere and all I can say is: IT'S SUMMER! I used to notice the same phenomenon in Yahoo groups...from June 'til September, it was like everyone dropped off the face of the Earth.
Rest assured, you DON'T suck! Your audience has just become lazy or otherwise occupied. Then there's me..fighting off a really major depression...but that's a whole other story, and it has no place here.
You just keep doing what you're doing. Blogging should always be for YOU, not the rest of the fucking planet.
*hugs and much love*
Posted by: Funkalicious at June 29, 2004 05:41 AM (JjOt1)
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I don't comment a lot, but I lurk around here regularly. I'll take that hug in person if I ever get the chance.
Posted by: Acidman at June 29, 2004 07:43 PM (MdHRM)
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