Ya know what?

I've had enough.
I'm totally, completely and absolutely sick of this shit.

The war, I mean.

I'm not a "politics blogger" to begin with because I find it boring and mostly stupid to try to keep straight a bunch of lies, liars and utter bullshit.

Nobody can agree on even one aspect of all this shit and it's only making me more confused and pissed off and that is NOT why I started doing this.

I started doing this to clear my head, not clog it up with SHIT, which is pretty much what this all is.

Since Nick Berg's murder, actually since the prison garbage, I've not even felt like posting because it feels too... massive. I can't get out what I mean, I know NOTHING of the ancient history of this shit and could not POSSIBLY care less and I'm sick of it keeping me from being here.

What's gonna happen is gonna happen and there is not one single damned thing I can do about it, so worrying about it is just stupid. Fuck that.

Ignoring this mess for 40 years did me just fine and that's what I'm gonna go back to.

The bottom line is this: Everybody is going to die. Somehow, some day, every single one of us is going to be dead. "No one here gets out alive..." I, personally, could give a fuck (but don't) when I die or how. It's not in my control, so again... why sweat it?

All this endless bullshit is killing me by inches and that (along with fire and drowning) is NOT the way I chose to go. This crap has changed me, made me more pissed off than I've ever been, with less chance of actually being able to do anything about it, than even my slut mother did. Couldn't do much about her either. God handled that. He killed her. Or, she did. (She was a NURSE whose parents BOTH died of massive MI's and yet, she let her MI go on for HOURS before she decided to say anything, so... whatever.)

I'm not gonna do that. I'm NOT gonna stress myself into dying like her at about the same age. Especially over this dumb shit.

I don't give a dead rats ass about liberating Iraq. I don't give a dead rats ass that Nick Berg let somebody whose dog was friends with a terrorist's dog use his computer, or whatever the fuckin' story is going to turn into next. I don't care who started all this shit. I just don't do NOT CARE ANYMORE. I can't. It's just too much bullshit. Too much game playing. Too much, period.

I have the video of Nick's beheading. I can't POST IT, because this thing says it's too big, but I've got it. I've watched it several times and how anybody can say we owe those ragheads ANY kind of consideration is beyond me and it's also killing any respect I ever had for this country and it's making me know way more than I ever really wanted to, just how fuckin' stupid some people are.

If I keep paying attention to all this and trying to figure it out, it's gonna destroy me, so... I'm done with it. There's too much oil, money and too many personal agendas involved in this shit for it to ever be resolved correctly, which would, of course, HAVE TO start with terrorist brain matter splattered everywhere.
Which, it's patently obvious, ain't. gunna. happen. Now, or ever.

So... to the people who were murdered on the morning of September 11th, 2001... I'm sorry. I'm sorry you were killed and I'm even more sorry that this country is too sorry to bother worrying about avenging you all.

Todd Beamer and those people on that airplane had more balls to do what had to, needed to, be done than all the useless, moronic fuckin' politicians in this country put together. How utterly disgusting and sad it is that they can't muster up the reslove to follow his lead.

"Let's roll."

Indeed.

Nick? What was done to you was... fuck, man... there ARE no words for it. You stand as a symbol for what trying to help those assholes can get ya. But, again... this country is too fuckin' stupid to see that. And... you should have never even been there. There's enough money to be made right here. So, I'm simultaneously horrified over and pissed at you for what was done. If I'd been your mother, I'd have broken both your legs to keep you from going over there, if I'd had to. IT JUST WASN'T WORTH IT, WAS IT????

But, I can't blame you entirely for that attitude of yours. You learned it from the US. This stupid country has enough of it's own shit to take care of... homeless people, starving kids, uneducated kids, nutjob people walking around loose, Social Security going down the toilet... shit like that to be "fixed" before we go telling anybody else how to run things, but, nooooo. Screw yer own backyard. Let's just piss and moan about and try to control the neighbors.

Typical.

And, ultimately deadly.

So, back to the way I was doing it before. I, too, have much more pressing concerns of my own to be fretting over what this pansy-assed country needs to be doing.

Go ahead and get me killed.

It isn't like I'm immortal, anyway. In the meantime, though, I have my own ridiculous excuse for a life to live and I'm just gonna do that.

I don't think I want to say "Peace" anymore. It seems like such a hollow word.

Later.

Posted by: Stevie at 07:22 PM

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