I found it...

I found the last link I wanted for Guitar Man.

I published it, briefly, got my permalink and now (or later on today, I need to step away from here for a while), I'll read it like a complete post for the first time, check the links and make sure they work and that they "work" the way I intend them to.

If everything is good, I'll be sending it as an email to a few people.

Then, day after tomorrow, I'll post it myself.

Meanwhile, I still ain't done SHIT around here yet...

I'm about to, though...

Right after I say this (and, please, God... don't let this take me another hour, okay?)...

Regarding the next post...

I realize that the way I've put things or some of the words I've used may frost some people's asses.
At least until they read the whole thing, or maybe even after that, if they still don't take what I said the way I meant it.

Nuances and all... hard to determine when you're reading, as opposed to seeing facial expressions and being able to actually hear the voice things are being said with.

With that in mind, I feel like I want to try to "set the scene", as it were, so you get the proper "flavor" of what I'm saying.

I'm not angry... not right now and not when I was writing that.
I have been, very much so, and could very well be again, if history were to repeat itself in any way.

But, I'm not angry now.

By the same token, I haven't forgotten what happened.
What was done to Rob has changed me, as a person, the way I see people, how I do or don't trust people... what was done to Rob made a permanant mark on me and it'll never go away.
It's a scar, really...

In spite of that, I still mean the upshot of that post.

And, I didn't say anything the way I said it on purpose to hurt anybody or stir shit up.
It just flowed out the way it did and I let it stand the way it came, mostly.
I maybe added a bit more explanation here or there, but, the way I said it is the unvarnished, no kid gloves truth as it was presented to me by Rob, in his own words.
That's how I perceived it and always will.

So, I'm not trying to be mean, okay?

Some people have a really hard time seeing the difference between brutal honesty and being picked on.

And, frankly?
There were MANY times that I had other women in mind as I was writing that.

And, for the record, what I see in my mind when I think of Rob and women is him, sitting on a dock, fishing into a swarming school of fish that never do leave the area.
(And, ya won't BELIEVE what he's using for bait, but there I go again, saying shit that could be taken the wrong way... *snort*)

There's some humor, some hurt, some humanity, a little anger and a lotta love in that post.

See it as clearly as some of you will the perceived insults, okay?

It's there.
Find it.

Peace

Posted by: Stevie at 07:11 AM

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Posted by: Deb at December 24, 2006 08:03 AM (jHJ7L)

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