Hey...

How's everybody? This has been a looong assed however-many-hours-it's-been-since-I-was-here-last.
Eric is doing good. Swellings down, he's got an appointment to see a dentist Friday and either get the offending tooth yanked then, or Monday. Either way...he's okay, so far, so great. Thank you, God.
The kittens are also fine. She only had two. They're both white with gray spots here and there. They kinda look like lil tiny gray-spotted Holsteins or Appaloosas.
I know...I can hear ya's....."PICTURES!!!!!" I'm gonna try. Be really helpful if'n I had a camera and the set up for this stuff...BUT. I've got a load of other pictures to send to Paul, so...I can always take more and send them, too. THAT kinda camera I do have. So...it may take a bit, but I can do this. I'll also just go on and take pictures of everything around here...EXCEPT ME...and send them, too. (Most of the pictures already being sent are me, so hush...lol)

The biggest reason I haven't said much, besides being a little busy, has been because of how that 'being busy' shit has made me feel. It involved a judgemental female, ya see. Sooo...I'm feeling like total shit, a bit.

One way or another, I'm gonna figure some shit out here. I do need input from you guys, though. First, let's do it this way....And, if I don't get comments from anybody on this, I WILL make it an email and mass mail it to some of ya's, sooo...
I really need to know these things. I have to define myself, for my own sanity and I want the truth, because it can't possibly hurt me more than I do.

Ready?

Define "white trash". You can include "trailer trash", too. What is that? WHO is that? What makes a person "trash", white, trailer or other kinds?

And...if a person IS 'trash', is it permanant? Is it like a reverse 'birthright' or is it something you can change?

And...whose opinions matter to you guys about yourselves? Who do you guys hope you don't look like 'trash' to, if you do sometimes feel like that?

Yeah, this is a big one. But, I feel like if I can chop, cut, hack and burn my way through this, I may come out better than ever on the 'other side' of this depression. Maybe.
Hell...can't be worse, cause 'worse' is dead and dead ain't even scary anymore.

(For the record...there's a part of me saying "Yo...judgemental bitch person...Why is it I'm automatically 'trash'? Why can't it be that we're doing really, really good for the circumstances we have to work with right now? Huh? Why can't it be seen that way and where do I find the people who DO see it that way, cause they're who I need to hear from for about 100 years, now, just like I've had to listen to that other crap all this time...ya know?")

Okay, you guys. Please, go ahead. I really need to hear from you guys now. You can comment, email me, call me (I'll give ya the number), hack the blog...whatever it takes so I can hear YOU, now...

Posted by: Stevie at 08:25 AM

Comments

1 Hiya Stevie,
Those terms have always been distasteful to me as they are judgemental in the worst degree. They steriotype someone of lower financial position as being trash and therefore beneath them in some way. Thrown into that mix is the forgone conclusion that anyone living in a mobile home/trailer..MUST be poor and/or white trash! Nothing could be further from the truth. In my book, the very people that use those terms are in great need of an operation to remove their heads from up their ass' and thrown into the "real world" because obviously they've never even visited there. *growls*

Posted by: s_faith at March 31, 2004 11:05 AM (ZG8bi)

2 Hey, congrats on my new grandkittens!

Ok, you may be trailer-trash if the animal population inside is more that eight times that of the huminbeans...If more than 75% of dirt in the living room is caused by animals...If a shovel is a major tool used during trailer cleaning...If your actually trashy neighbors look and talk down to you as though your level of education is around third grade...If you have one or more disabled vehicles sitting outside...
(you're beyond t-t if the vehicle(s) are INSIDE
the trailer)...Hey--wait a minute that's five out of five! Oh No!

Look, Love, I grew up poorer that anybody I knew. Your Grandpop worked at any available job,
we grew most of our own food, (pigs,chickens,rabbits,ducks, all our own vegetables, etc.) chopped already dead trees up for fire-wood for our wood-stove, had no running hot water in any of the nine houses I lived in before I was 14, and running cold water in only one, all bathrooms were outside, wooden and had half-moons cut into the door, most were two-holers,so were social centers for family(any two
members of the sexually evenly divided family could be together talking, laughing and pooping)
this, by the way, leads to an adult life of zero embarrassment at any time...AND an appreciation
of anything even semi-nice that happens to you for the rest of your life..(running out of breath ,yet?)How about a period? . (or two)..

Maybe some folks would define t-t as folks who
won't work, and/or stay in a perpetual state of
alcohol or chemically induced torpor, ignoring any responsibity, even their children's welfare.
I'm not even sure someone as far gone as this
would qualify. I believe, as s-faith, above,
so aptly puts it, it's not for outsiders to judge
folks who are not doing what other people think they should. You and yours (including my grandkittens) are working to get stuff back,
and ain't t-t. (Why does my evil mind keep wanting to stick an 'i' in there? hmmm)

Geez, this sure went on a long time. I'm at work, and had better get back running some samples..It's actually lunchtime...I'm going to
EAT some lunch samples....

Love

Dad

Posted by: haveayen at March 31, 2004 11:54 AM (OWcWc)

3 Be who you are and say what you feel because those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter. :-)
(I don't have a URL yet.)
I throughly enjoy your posts though.
~Dave

Posted by: Bucknekkid™ at March 31, 2004 12:53 PM (DfIZa)

4 I agree with Dave: Those who matter don't mind and those who mind don't matter. I grew up with that mantra. My bestest bud would be considered "t-t" by most of the people I know, but he's just a good 'ol boy and can't help that his spouse has major holes in her pocketbook and they live in a trailer. That doesn't change who he is- he has a big heart and the ability to not care what others think.

Posted by: Kenna at March 31, 2004 01:15 PM (h8fVz)

5 The only people who qualify as trash, in my opinion, are those would ever consider another human being worthless for being different. I dunno who this judgmental female is that's giving you a rough time, but she's 1000% wrong about you, I'm sure of that.

I like your dad. Can I borrow him? Mine died a long, long time ago, and I miss him.

Posted by: Snowball at March 31, 2004 03:37 PM (u3M6e)

6 My husband always says, "Life is still just life." It took me a long time to figure out just what he meant by that.

When see people, be them "trash" or not, I believe that they are working through this life's lesson(s). One's own personal beliefs will color one's view of the world. As such, I believe that when we die, we are judged. If were not fully "done" yet, then we are thrust back down to "hell" to learn them lessins...it's karma and all that.

Hey girl, you have one great daddy!

Posted by: Surfie at March 31, 2004 04:10 PM (FAtXe)

7 You know, in my life I have gone through some extremes - from being wrenched from my home and thrown into an entirely different culture to having my wife and daughter taken away from me in a horiffic car accident - to having my own life nearly snuffed out more than once...

Along those years I learned quite a few things.

Among them...

Treasure every person you meet because they are walking through life just like you and they have the ability to show you a new perspective simply because they have experienced life their own way.

Treasure every moment you have. You never know when you are walking down the road where the road will turn, twist, rise, fall or stop. The road may very well be a rug with someone standing on one end of it holding it in both their hands ready to wipe you out - so step carefully, but keep 'a steppin' .. The road is the road, the scenery is what you take in.

Opinions are valueable tools for learning. They tell you more about the person giving you their opinion rather than the object of that opinion. Someone who is biased, racist, funny, intelligently observant or downright nuttier than a fruitcake your family inherited from a christmas sale 3 generations ago will be easily evident in the velocity, veracity and ferocity of their opinions.

BUT - there is always one of those isn't there...

YOUR opinion of yourself is what counts, it should be based solely on the effect that you have, or, rather the impact, on those around you. As far as I can see, you are an incredible person - period. You have those around you that care, deeply, without question about your well-being, your happiness, your love. In this world, that is the rarest kind of person there is. I would admire you for that alone - but you are even more than that. You are the only you there is, and you may snicker and say thank gawd! For that... I do too... But I thank God simply because he blessed us all with your presence.

So - in my opinion, you don't put a jewel such as yourself in the catagory of any kind of trash....


But - What is White Trash or Trailer Trash... hehe

Sam Kinnison was trash... and so am I... He stole more than enough of my jokes - LORD KNOWS.

Peace --- and Live Long and Prosper...!

Simpley Me...

So.....? Whaddaya Tink?

Posted by: Rei at May 01, 2004 03:41 AM (UEv1X)






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