Okay...
Here's the deal.
I hafta reeeeally clean this house.
Top to bottom, side to side and completely.
I keep reading where people are doing spring cleaning and the descriptions of the results are making me crazy. I am getting to the point where I just HAVE TO do this.
However....
I live right smack in the middle of a farm driveway. Dust and dirt are a way of life around here. Nearly everything outside is counter-productive to cleanliness. Dead leaves, dust, dirt, cowshit, components of cow feed (some of which looks like flour), animals, animal hair, mud, the fact that animals don't levitate when they go out, the fact that the four dogs go out, on a rotating basis, at least 492 times a day, hay, straw, heavy equipment rumbling around stirring up shit...ugh...it's endless. Plus, I'm convinced that the very structure we live in is packed with dust and cobwebs inside the walls and ceiling or something, that just magically reappear as soon as you get rid of the originals. It's fuckin' bizarre.
Even when I do get it 'clean', they're there...mocking me.
Every time I think of doing this, I look around and feel my resolve just melt. It's a huge job that I'm skeert will turn into an endless cycle/swirl/hell that'll never REALLY be done. Like...by the time I get it all done the first time, it'll be time to turn around and start all over again, to the exclusion of everything else in life.
Siiigh.
Not to even mention having to keep up with all the regular shit.
Makes me feel beaten (beat up and defeated) before I can even start.
Once I start, I do not wanna stop until I absolutely have to, like in the event of unconsciousness, fire, nuclear war...whatever, cause I know re-starting will be twice as hard.
SO!
If I don't post much, you'll know why. If I do, you'll know I'm screwin' off again, instead of doing what I oughta be doing. As usual.
I swear, I have the self-discipline level of a freakin' rodeo bronc these days.
And, I usedta could do dressage.....
Pray for me, please.
I'll need all the help I can get. I'll be back when I have some progress to report.
*Slams welders helmet shut and gives a 'thumbs up' sign* Peace.
Comments
I hope that made sense.
Posted by: Burnt Fuse at March 23, 2004 05:02 PM (TFvOY)
Sure did.
Coming from you, it may just work, too. Lord knows that mess just laughs at me when I say it...
And, yes...gonna start...riiiiight....NOW!
Posted by: Stevie at March 23, 2004 05:52 PM (mvK/j)
I'm on the same quest today, and having just about equal luck beating the procrastination. If your efforts go well, would you mind lending me the helmet to tackle the load of dishes in my sink? Please?
And Burnt? Could you teach me that commanding thing?
Paul
Posted by: Light & Dark at March 23, 2004 06:59 PM (Hrm9v)
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