Hey everybody, how ya'll doin'?

I'm okay.
Kinda cool waking up in my own bed, as opposed to my own CAR, for a change... *grin*
Though, I hafta admit, Eric had to tell me what day this is... I thought it was Sunday... *lol*
Don't know where I got that from...

Anyway, I did my usual "go to bed at daybreak, get up around God-knows-when" thing.
I stayed up this time to try to be able to just see all the cool shit that was done online for Rob.
And, man... there's a LOT of it.

The chat room, posts, comments... a lot to read.

One post that my Dad called and told me about was the one Jim did, at Parkway Reststop. Dad said that one almost made him cry.
I, in turn, told him to go read "The New Guy" at youbitch.

(And, if I didn't hafta git my ass to the Agway in the next hour, I'd be making links, but... I have this "timed event" to attend to, so I need to try to keep this as quick as I can right now. Besides, y'all already know where these things are, right? I hope?)

He didn't ever comment over at Gut Rumbles or anything, but he enjoyed reading Rob's posts and Rob made Dad laugh out loud at some of the things he said and the way he'd say 'em.
But, even though they never "spoke", Dad always does say that Rob was instrumental in my recovery from that damned depression I was in when I found him.
For that reason alone, I think my Dad mighta loved Rob a bit too, in his own way.
If it hadn't been for Rob inspiring me to start blogging, I'd probably never have been gifted with finding Paul, of Light and Dark.
Paul was the one who all but held my hand while we, together, followed Rob's footsteps back into the light of the world.
And, boy, what a bright light that man was and still is...

I staggered on down here today and plunked my ass in this old, familiar chair and was FLOORED by the number of emails and comments I had to read.

Y'all are AMAZING.

I did answer Mike in my comments. (And, just for now, I wouldn't let anything he said in any emails or comments he sent before he was "exposed" to Livey at the service get to you. I've been given reason to think he may have opened his eyes some and may not be as stuck up her ass as it appeared at first, though, I also hafta admit, that the "defending" (or trying to explain) her actions that he's done in my comments is making me wonder. But, ya know what? Even if he is still wedged up there, just feel sorry for him for his ignorance and for what she'll end up doing to him in time to make him regret being her friend, okay? He's pitiable if that is the case and not dangerous in ANY case.)

I got that far, before the "Agway" deal was mentioned to me. (Need fly spray for the horses and Jr. needs barn boots, so I can't not get to that today...)

The emails (not sent as comments), I will get to before this night ends.
Each of you deserve as thoughtful a reply from me as was thoughtful the things you said.
I don't wanna rush through my replies and seem flippant or miss anything.

Briefly, the ones that stand out the most are Libby... and I sure will send you that, no problem AND, while I wasn't able to get any rocks from the Crackerbox driveway (it's cement, not dirt and I didn't wanna be chippin' it to pieces *grin*), I do have a coupla things to send you (and anyone else who asked) that I think you'll like to have.

Cindi and the others who have written fearing that I may not want to hear from you because you've been in Livey's comments... Relax, Darlin'(s). That doesn't matter. I'm not a militant "you spoke to her once, so piss off" kinda person.
Hell, we all make mistakes and Livey is really good at painting whatever picture she wants you to see, and, I, myself, am of the "hafta learn for myself" school (graduated with HONORS from that one, I did *grin*), so consider yourselves welcome to write to me anytime ya want. Say whatever ya want to, too. Don't be afraid if I read a coupla cuss words (or even a LOT of them) that I'll think less of you, or whatever.
It's rawther hard to discuss Livey without a few choice words.
I, of all people, know that.

Only people who need to fear me are the ones who will try to hurt Rob's memory.
And, let me just say it now... the man's memory means as much to me as he did, so if anybody thinks I'm gonna back off NOW, they are sadly (and painfully) mistaken.
His memory is all we have left now and I'll do whatever it takes to preserve it, warts and all, yes, but I won't tolerate troll-bullshit.
Never did before.
Why the fuck would I start now?
Ya know?

Anyway...

I'm also aware there are a lot of people waiting for my "inevitable blow up/attack on Livey".

So as not to disappoint you "fine" folks, here it is....

May the song "Instant Karma" haunt her the rest of her life.

(EOM)
(Or, in the words of Forrest Gump, "That's all I have to say about that." For now. Lord knows she'll probably drive me nuttier than she is before she finally does fuck off like Rob wanted so much for her to do, but... I'll do my best not sink to the expectations of those FOL's. For Rob... for his memory and the integrity of it all. Not to even mention all the really fine and good people I'd let down or disappoint by doing so. Including myself. Lord, please help me not to fail, here, okay? Thanks, Your Dudeness... me)

Now... I gotta go get a shower and go to Agway. And, from what I've been whined at about TOLD by these guys around here, it seems like I'mina hafta hit the grocery store too, before they start roastin' my cats on a spit, no matter how much that idea would have tickled Mr. Rob.

I'll be back in bit.
Chins up, y'all.
Tears in your eyes are allowed, sure, but chins up, be proud of your associations with Rob and try to react to the nutballs accordingly.
(Meaning "try not to let them get you down, but, by all means, do tear 'em a new one, as Rob would have, if they go too far.")

(And, I feel this, so... I'm gonna say it)
Much love...

Update in the EP. Click the link. It's about Mike...

He's gone, a lost cause, y'all.

His reply to my answer to him is in the comments under the "I'm tired now" post.

He suggests a "truce".
Fine.
But, he also suggests that I "get over myself".
Not fine.

Listen, Bigboy, it wasn't ME who brought up the "body guard" bullshit.
I asked what your role was and was told that by quite a few people.
Yes, Livey DID know I was coming and yes, she did USE you, whether you want to believe it or not. Not to mention, she made you look foolish to everybody by doing so. As you are now doing to yourself by defending her, but... whatever blows your dress up, "eh"?

Do you think you're special or something? Do you think you're the oooone person on this planet she won't fuck over?

Please, son.

Why were you even THERE, besides to prop her silly ass up and "defend" her?
You weren't known by ANYBODY who was there, you're not, or weren't, known to Rob, you weren't one of his friends.

If you're willing to go that far, to fly acorss the country to "support a friend who need it" and you'd "do it again", may I make a suggestion?

Be your own friend, 'cause you're gonna need you when she fucks you over.
And... it WILL happen.

Much like being hurt riding bulls... it's not a matter of "if", it's a matter of "when".

Meantime, you enjoy your new "elevated" status as Livey's champion and hopefully, by the time you finally see the error of your "good hearted" ways, it won't be too late for you to make some REAL friends in the blog world.

It's a risk I wouldn't take.

But you go for it.
Have fun.
Just, whatever you do, spare us all the "being surprised" shit once you do finally see the truth, once she does fuck you over, okay?
You have been warned about her, you've seen for yourself the shit she does and starts.
But, like I said, you're a big boy and can make up your own mind.

I wish you luck, because again, like I said... yer gonna need it.

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