Okay, then....
I'm starting to feel better now. Got a nice, fresh cuppa coffee and Geoff made me laugh out loud.
It'll happen. Someday, someway...Thank God for Pixy Misa and things like 'later' and 'tomorrow'. Gives me hope... And, yes, I do realize how utterly ridiculous it is to worry about mundane stuff like this now, but, I don't think it's instead of 9/11. It's more like 'in addition to'. You know, usually time heals wounds. But, for some reason, with 9/11, it isn't. Maybe it's because I fell in love with Eric so soon after it happened, thereby being allowed to escape it for the most part. I don't know. But, last year, I watched that French guys video they showed on CBS and I really started to feel the horror and understand the implications of it more than I had at first. This year? Jesus. I can't get Todd Beamer out of my head and every time I think of his exquisite courage..."I've gotta go out on faith" and "Let's roll"...I start to cry. Of all the men in the world not to be able to be home with his wife and kids...damn. I feel it more this year than last. Instead of less.And, Sweet Jesus, all those cops and firemen. I used to do that stuff myself. I was in a volunteer fire company-an active member, putting out fires with the rest of the guys-not in the 'ladies auxilliary'. I worked for two police departments and the 911 center back in Jersey. It coulda been any or all of the guys I know. I went to Jett Superior's page (she's in the blogroll back on 'splat') and she had three links and a candle for her post. One of those links is to the New York Times audio feeds of the guys responding and the comm center. To hear them and realize that I was listening to people who were killed...(fuck. here I go again) it's almost too much. (No..it is too much..) Then I found a site by a guy named Jim Lynch over at Michele's "Voices" project. He has/had a slide show accompanied by music by Enya. Normally, I'd leave the room rather than listen to that 'music', but, again...Sweet Jesus. It dropped me to my knees. The whole thing breaks my heart, while at the same time filling it with the desire to go over there and personally murder those towel-headed pricks myself. I keep thinking "If only they knew who they were killing..." Like it would make them stop. They aren't killing people who are even remotely responsible for whatever is pissing them off. (That seems to change every 45 seconds, or so. First it's one thing, then it's something else..) And, when you know a person, it would make it harder to just indiscriminately kill them, wouldn't it?
Then, I remember all those lost, evil pieces of human shit who were cheering and celebrating what was done. And, I feel nothing but despair. It wouldn't make them stop. Not only would they not stop, they'd enjoy knowing how badly they hurt us. Maybe if they could see some of the beauty of some of the places in this country, like along the banks of a stream or the serenity of the woods, or baby animals-calves, puppies, kittens, foals-maybe if they just saw, really looked at what they're trying to destroy, they'd re-think this whole thing. Yeah, right. They wouldn't see any of it as anything except potential targets. "Oh, this is what you like? Okay, we'll bomb it, then."
They are just pure, unmitigated evil and there is no real reason for it. That has a lot to do with why I get so damn disgusted with Bush and everybody else who's 'in charge'. These assholes cannot be reasoned with. They refuse to listen, think or even try to understand. And, the fact that even one of them is still alive is shameful. On Bush. (Both of them, actually.) On those just-as-guilty people who knew it was going to happen and let it. After those less-than-humans bombed the WTC the first time, there shouldn't have been any of them left for GW to pussyfoot around with.
What's it going to take-one of those assholes to put a bullet or a bomb in Bush or one of his relatives before he does what should have been done in the first place? They should have been bombed, shot and tortured right out of existence in the first place. We literally should have started wiping them out from day one back in '91 and not let up until they were all dead or in prison. (Fuck prison-make that DEAD.)
And, fuck Bush, too. I don't have to hang it on him, personally. Anybody who let's it keep happening sucks. The only people who are actively trying to put an end to this are our military and their families who support them. And, us other people who support them and pay taxes, allegedly to take care of stuff like this.
Which, by process of elimination, pretty much just leaves our illustrious leaders.
'Process of elimination'...well, that fits. They are all a buncha shits for letting this shit go on...and on...and on. The only other thing I keep thinking of is people like John Edwards, James Von Praugh and people like them. They need to start saying that they're hearing from the suicide bombers and those 'pilots' and that they are saying that there is no Allah (or whomever), that it's a bunch of shit and that all they are, are dead. I already believe that, anyway. Let's start selling those assholes that theory. That, combined with severe retribution/retaliation/sanctions(like DEATH) might make some sort of impression. Mighten it? (Mighten...is that a word?) Wanna know something else? If Eric had been killed in the WTC and Bush, or any of the rest of 'em, came to me and said "Oh, I am sooo sorry" , I'd look him right in the eye and say "I know you are. Now apologize." I would be way beyond PISSED. There would be NOTHING the government could do to shut me up or make me go with their lack of a program. I would not be one of the nice, quiet little people who believe anything they said and let them handle it for me. They're 'handling' of it is exactly why it was able to happen. If Eric had been killed (or ever is in any capacity) I'll have nothing left to live for, nothing left to lose. And, you can damn well bet I'd follow Todd's example and take as many of those cretins out with me as I could. (I mean the towel-heads...but, our government people are closer...hmmm). And, just by the way, I have just decided that since they're all a bunch of shitheads, anyway, I will now and forevermore refer to them as 'diaper-heads'. Huge sigh....When I was about 14, I made the mistake of watching a tv show about Nostradamus. It said that he predicted the world was going to end during my lifetime. That fucked me up severely. Something that dumb. I can't even begin to imagine what kids today are feeling. We adults keep trying to get them to act right, behave, become something. It's no wonder they don't listen or care about that stuff. It does seem a bit pointless when you can get blown up at any second just because somebody doesn't like the way your country is.
God help them. And us.
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