*big ol' deep breath*
And another.
Okay.I'm fine.
Or, at least... better. Between Ric, Tena, Paul, my Dad and Eric, I was pretty much convinced that quitting wasn't really the answer. Then, Rob lent his strength and gave a mighty tug and... I'm back outta the pit to hell I was being pushed/falling/jumping into. Thank you all of you guys. The way to do this is one thing at a time. Okay... Mikey is handled. My period is outta my control. If I had any kinda control over that, I'd never have one again. Stupid, useless shit that it is. The dog situation is not in my control either. Gonna hafta gut that one out. Same with this one other situation I've been dealing with for over a week so far. And, I at least got to talk to my Dad, which is at least part of the whole point. The hardest part of four outta these five things is that I can only have however much is given, to hell with and with no thought about how much I may need. Sucks, but what am I gonna do?
Only other thing I know to do is walk away.... far, far away, never to return... to FORCE myself not to need these things anymore and I don't really wanna do that... yet... either. I just want this pressure, this being backed up against a wall, to fuck off.
And, it's gonna.
One way or another, it's gonna. I promise me that.
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Do you know the Serenity Prayer? You KNOW that I'm not a religious man, but this works for me:
"God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference."
Read those words carefully and think about what they mean. And always remember what my daddy told me: "If it was easy, any asshole could do it."
"God, grant me the serenity
To accept the things I cannot change
The courage to change the things I can
And the wisdom to know the difference."
Read those words carefully and think about what they mean. And always remember what my daddy told me: "If it was easy, any asshole could do it."
Posted by: Acidman at January 26, 2006 09:17 PM (tZcNR)
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Yes, I have heard that before and it does make sense and it never even occured to me.
I will be thinking about that.
Thank you.
(Feel like you just took my face away from the tree trunk it's been pressed against and made me realize/see the forest... *smile*)
I will be thinking about that.
Thank you.
(Feel like you just took my face away from the tree trunk it's been pressed against and made me realize/see the forest... *smile*)
Posted by: Stevie at January 26, 2006 09:26 PM (uDJMg)
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