The definition of a hero....
According to my handy-dandy Webster's New World Dictionary, it's "any person, especially a man, who is admired for courage, nobility, etc."
noble adj 1. well known, famous or renowned. 2. having high moral qualities. 3. excellent. 4. grand; stately. Okay. Makes sense. Wanna see the word personified? I've thought of Rob as one of my heros since I first started reading him. He's always been so honest, straight-forward, raw... heroic in his struggles to understand, to survive, to be heard. I called him that, yet again, the other night, talking to Paul on the phone.Then, I called him that to his ear. (Wish it was to his face, but it was by phone... *grin*)
He said (and I quote), "I ain't no hero..." To which I quickly replied, "Oh, I don't know about that. I just used that very word to Paul, not an hour ago..." He is one to me.
Always has been.
Always will be. We're enough alike, have so many attitudes, opinions and ideas of justice that are the same, that I can't not love him.
Yet, he's light-years ahead of me, though only 11 years older, in having this "life shit" figured out. I learn so much from Rob... so much. He shows me things inside of myself that I thought had been lost, burned up, used up and fucked to death years ago. He taught me how to channel most, if not always all, of my boundless rage at the injustice of life itself into something halfway constructive.... Crossfire. He showed me that it's okay to be furious and to say so in no uncertain terms. He showed me what having a cast-iron ass is really all about. He also showed me it's okay to have a heart that feels... to love, to trust and to even sometimes need the most unpredictable, unstable, vicious lot of all... people. He shows me time and again that some of them are worth the risk and a select few are worth just ANYTHING to be a part of them. Finding Rob Smith truly was one of the top two best things that has ever happened to my life, Eric finding me being the other one... The impact the man has had and continues to have on my life is incredible and I'm more grateful for it than I can articulate. He's an amazing human being and I'm glad he's a part of my life.
Now, can someone make a small copy of his sidebar picture for me, so I can glue in my dictionary next to that word he so defines, yet so quickly dismisses and by that very dismissal defines yet again, please?
*slithers outta chair, giggling* I love you, Rob.....Comments
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Done.
Posted by: John Ostrowsky at October 18, 2005 09:41 PM (I1GMO)
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Thank you so much, Sweetheart.
Now all I've gotta do is find, then hook up (Gawd help me) the printer...
*falls on floor giggling at the very idea of that working*
Good motivation to try it, though...
Now all I've gotta do is find, then hook up (Gawd help me) the printer...
*falls on floor giggling at the very idea of that working*
Good motivation to try it, though...
Posted by: Stevie at October 19, 2005 02:21 AM (7MeZN)
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